I woke up today with the intention of having an awesome day. I woke up ready to face my day with a positive attitude. Today I"m getting my hair cut and meeting with an old friend from high school. Everything's suppose to be good today. Instead my day just started and for no reason I'm filled with immense anger and resentment towards everyone around me. I don't wanna shave I don't wanna go get a haircut and I'm too angry to care. Its obvious to my family that I'm in a foul mood. Already i got the old "Why are you being such a dick today? Just because I didn't read that blog you asked me to?"
Its not the blog I'm angry about. Its everything. I'm too much of a coward to tell her the truth. Its embarrassing when I have a bad day. Makes me feel like a loser, like and adult male should have enough sense to keep his feelings in check. So angry and filled with spite. I call it venom shooting when things come out of my face that I don't really mean and like venom, it poisons the relationships its taken me so long to make. Today is going to be one of those days where I FAKE IT TILL I MAKE IT. I'll apologize, smile, laugh and pretend I'm OK for my family. Its the least I can do. After all... family's all you really have in the end you know.